First week in Colorado: B-
This post is another one of those “I’m so invisible” posts. Because that’s how I feel. I don’t have any friends.
Well, I have friends, but nobody I can’ really talk to, ya know? Everyone is at the football game today. I decided not to go, and I’m kind of regretting it. I really didn’t wanna spend 8 hours in Denver (the game is at the bronchos stadium because its a huge rivalry game), with no real way home. I’m starting to get really lonely. Everyone has a “clique” and I just sit in my room and play WoW, read, or do homework if I’m not in class. I want to go home. But I really don’t want to at the same time. I’m trying really hard to be happy here, but it just kind of sucks.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the school itself. I love my classes. My professors are pretty awesome. But all anyone wants to do is party. And if you don’t party you’re a loser. And the only person I know who doesn’t party.. well.. I can only handle so much. I dig her a lot. She’s way cool. But I think because I have spent most of my life kinda by myself, no siblings, etc, that having someone just pop over to my room whenever is weird. I don’t know how I feel about it. It’s uncomfortable. And i don’t want to tell her that because it’s not her fault, really. It’s just how I am.
Guess we’ll see how this week goes.